Well, we met. I'm spent. The director of CC said he'll get back to us by the end of the week, hopefully, with an answer. I'm too exhausted, mentally and emotionally, to go into the details of the meeting....maybe later. Everything seemed positive, but from our past interactions and a few comments he made (more about himself than us) I'm not expecting a change in their answer but still praying for one.
I'm wishing that I had blogged earlier about the similarities of adoption and pregnancy. Anyone who has experienced both knows the amazing comparison very well. Not going to go through all the stages right now, but for those who have been pregnant, perhaps you can identify with some of our emotions at this stage through this analogy. Last week's call from our social worker was like getting a call from your doctor a few weeks after your big 20-wk sonogram saying that there looks like there's something terminally wrong with your pregnancy. This shocks you because up until this point, everything seems normal and good with your pregnancy, right down to that day that you first saw your baby squirming around the monitor as the tech smeared cold jelly around your belly with her wand. So, naturally, you want a second opinion from a specialist. Today we had the specialist review our tapes and are waiting for his opinion.
Now, to save some of you from making a well-meaning yet insensitive comment, while we are certainly praying for the Lord's will, one would never say to that expectant mom that if this baby does indeed die God must not want for her to give birth and she should give up trying to get pregnant again. We are trying to process what's at hand right now with Catholic Charities. If our relationship does indeed come to an end this week, we will then look to where to go from there, and until we sense otherwise, at this point we are not doubting the burden and desire that is on our heart to grow our family through adoption.
I again cannot express our gratitude for all of the support we have received during this week. I will update again once we hear back from CC.
Praying Romans 15:13 for us right now: May the God of all hope fill (us) with all joy and peace as (we) trust in him, so that (we) may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.